Thoughts ripped from my brain on January 27, 2007 at 2:06am.

it's a cold night. it is indeed. it's not just cold outside, but it's cold inside my house. the heat's turned up but for some reason i'm just not warm. at all. no part of me is warm. anyways, it's two in the morning and i can't sleep. there's two reasons i can't sleep. the first is that i've been listening to pink floyd's dark side of the moon and animals trying to find meaning in the lyrics. there's a lot of meaning in there, and most of it's explanatory...but parts of their songs are like coded messages. they're really intruiging. i 've been taking bits of songs and finding ways to apply them to life, love, and the trials that both often bring. i'm cycling through the cd's again now...picking up on new things...it's really something.

the other reason is a personal one though.
it's the one that's eating at me the most.
and there's really only two people i can talk to about it.
one of the people would quickly throw punches though.
so that leaves like what...? one person.
one person i can talk to about it.
and that person can't take when i talk to them about it.
which basically leaves me.
to talk to myself about the single most irritating and
depressing issue currently eating at me.
but i'm sure it will pass given time.
i hope so