everyday healing

i see you everyday, but i don't think we've ever spoken. on at least a few occasions, we've locked eyes only to look away. have you taken in my thoughts and ideas with your optical undressing. i have seen the way you ignore me, and i have accepted it. to live with you by my side, but never entangled in communal affairs, will set me free and let me live. i see you everyday, but yet we are so damn far apart. we are farther than the begining and the lovely end of the day. intriuge me with your mysterious glances, and chosen option to ignore me. ignore me, and destroy me with your bliss. i think i love it. i think i do. and if all the leaves fall down this autumn and no one's here to see, will you still remember me? will you lay in bed and close your eyes only to find that it's where i belong?