alone, and only alone.

alone is what i deserve,
for i never make another happy.
i just go on,
with my delusions hurting all that stand in my way.
the one who sees from a vantage above,
can understand my feeling.
maybe alone is all i deserve.
alone, dying of old age,
a fragile heart,
and collapsing lungs.
maybe that's all i can ever hope for.
it's the one thing i couldn't fuck up.
when i climb the stairs alone tonight,
alone is the last thing i will be.
this isn't goodbye,
this is the tangerine sky,
that surrounds me and only me.