shattered years

tonight, baby, was the dark night of the soul. i howled at the moon, but it wouldn't make me full. you should have seen me on the grass under the treee atop the hill. growing, morphing changing, feeling nothing girl, but still i just pressed on. i am so sorry. i didn't know it'd be like this. i am a monster left to starve myself so that others may live in bliss. it's not my fault? it's not my place. how'd i let it get so bad. why'd i make you get so sad. did i say i was sorry? i tried to say it so many times, but i blurred all of the lines. my heart, there is no substitute. to say i never loved you was a lie. i did. i'm sorry. i know not why we couldn't work it out, but let's not dwell on that. let's dwell on what could have been. let's look at what can blossom. you can go your way, and i can go mine. let's swing on the tethers, let's skin the umbilical vine. now i will fly into the deepest stretch of space where no one will ever see.